While I was sitting with some old High School friends eating dinner tonight, I realized something. Things that are important at one phase in life seem completely trite and almost ridiculous in the next to come. I have realized this before but seeing old friends' lives unfold before my eyes really instills that thought in my mind. Popularity. Who you know. Being the life of the party. These are all things that wax and wane as life moves on. My friend Jared, for example, has always been the type that is serious aboutthe future, and all about security in finding a job. I knew he would end up married out of college with a safe job and eventually a family. He is the kind of guy that will never change; however, his desire for a job has changed. He's gone from political science to a funding company in the Charlotte area. Soon we realize that once we have found the person we are meant to be with (as Jared has), we sort of toss our dreams and aspirations aside for a while... to be logical and "safe". Applying this to my life is very simple... the desire to sing/write/perform will always be within me, but as time passes, I'm not sure if that dream will come true. I realize that GOD has a plan for my life, and I should not try to take the steps to plan it myself, but I still do not want to retreat from my desires in order to stick to what is "safe" (teaching). The idea of marriage has definitely been spoken about in detail. The realization that I have found 'the one' almost pushes me towards the safe route. In doing this I wonder... am I simply tossing my desire for music aside because I want to be safe? Turns out... that is the same as asking.. am I too afraid to trust in GOD to provide as I do what He wants me to do? I constantly jump back and forth, from the choice of doing what I truly love.. to what I would enjoy.. I know that teaching is a ministry in itself, but is it my calling? This is my constant struggle.
God doesn't call us to something that is safe
He calls us to something that tests us and pushes us
In order to stretch our faith, and fully trust in Him.
The Lord provides.
I have to constantly remind myself of this daily.
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