(Posted on Webquest on July 2, 2010) We are on the brink of an exciting fresh start! Starting on August 2nd, my husband and I will be moving to Ohio. I will be starting graduate school and my husband will be starting a campus ministry through the local church as well as the North American Mission Board (NAMB). A lot of change is about to happen. My feelings? My thoughts? I feel … overwhelmed, excited, scared, nervous, ready for adventure, not-so ready for some aspects. I think this move is huge, and will place us in a new environment around new people with new settings and situations. A lot of “new”s there! This doesn’t have to be seen as something bad though. Honestly, I will embrace the change. I am so ready for something new and exciting, it’s coming out of my ears. I feel bad for my husband because I keep talking about how we can make our new apartment fun and exciting. The whole nesting thing is way more important to me than I ever thought! I first have to get settled, then bring on the change! There have been a lot of things that have required us to play the waiting game. It’s been frustrating, but its almost forced us to put those decisions in God’s hands and say ” ya know, as much as I try, I have no idea how this will turn out. There is no crystal ball, there are no psychics that will tell me exactly what our first week in Ohio will be like, let alone the entire first year!” Yes, we have a plan in mind, but it could be nothing like what I am picturing (very likely). There are many things I will have to sacrifice on this end; a huge part of this decision was our parents’ support. I quickly realized that support doesn’t quite mean approval or agreement. It was very difficult for me to make this decision knowing that my parents were not behind me one hundred percent. Especially little ol’ me, the one who couldn’t even buy her first pack of groceries without thinking “would mom see this as saving money?” That still goes through my head at the grocery store. Once I made the dreaded call to my dad saying this was our decision, they have supported us; let me tell you how great of a feeling that is … its been spectacular! Another thing I will be sacrificing is time with my husband. I was pretty busy as a first year teacher, but I could come home knowing that I could spend the rest of my time with my husband (very reassuring). Now, we shall see what our schedules will be like. The good thing is … we’ll be at the same college. So we could meet up every now and then for lunch, or something to that effect. Another sacrifice is family. Being far from my family is going to be a lot harder than I think I have realized. I’ll probably cry a few nights when my head hits the pillow. And tear up when I first hear my mom or dad’s voice. All a part of growing up … I suppose. What’s weird is that I was always a little sad when I got back to school at Appalachian after being home for a while. And I was crazy homesick at camp. I think my parents assume I will just forget to call all the time and almost isolate myself from them on purpose. I think it will be the opposite. I have really and truly tried my best to take advantage of all the family time I can before the move. It’s awesome that they will be coming to Ohio. I’m so happy they will get to see our place and get to see the town. Maybe they will feel more at ease once that happens. All in all, I’d say we are sacrificing comfort (or what we see as comfort). But I truly believe that God purposely places us outside of our comfort zones so we can fully rely on Him. Only then can all we do reflect His glory. It’s definitely worth the sacrifices.
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